I don’t know why what happened to me shocks people. Everything about me is perfectly logical. Down to my three obsessions: ballet, sex, and food. Yep, food, though it might seem strange to put that one on that list, but it isn’t, not really.
All three bring me pleasure and pain.
All three demand the same commitment from me. Total discipline and control coupled with an ability to let completely loose and surrender to reward through agony and beauty through sacrifice.
See, completely logical.
Until it wasn’t and sent me into a downward spiral that seemed out of nowhere to everyone in my life except Jacob Merrick.
He saw through me from the start.
But that didn’t stop me from going to bed with him.